An Honest Post

Hi. My name is Alexandra, and I’m going to be honest.

I have chronic depression, which can be severe with suicidal thoughts. I have a panic disorder that renders me unconscious if I get too bad. I have Post-traumatic Stress Disorder from past hardships.

Everything I do is at the mercy of what goes on in my head.

Everything.

And that seems to be who I am these days. I am my mental incapacities. I am the depression that keeps me from showering regularly during low times. I am the panic that makes me scared to go out in public, especially if there are small children. I am the mental breakdowns that keep me from fulfilling a lot of goals in life.

I am. I am. I am.

Yeah, there may be more ‘I am’s. Female. Religious. Queer. Educated. Whatever.

But none that drives more than mental disorders.

Be honest. Know who you are.

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