My Break From Video-Making

If any of you follow my YouTube channel, you know what this is about.

If you do not, I’ll link the video here, so watch that first (if you want to).

First of all, if I’m going to be completely honest, which I always try to be, I was thinking about taking a break to begin with.

It’s hard for me, personally, to admit that, considering I claim such a passion for making videos. I do. I say it time and time again how much I love making videos. Well, lately, I’ve found that passion a bit…dwindled.

I expect a lot out of myself, and I want to be the best person I can be. Recently, my best self has been trying too much: a consistent twice-a-week YouTube schedule, a consistent thrice-a-week website schedule, working on a production, my actual job, reading 50+ books in a year, writing and editing my original work, art, crafts, learning ASL, trying to learn coding, on top of attempting to maintain my health, mentally and physically. Full disclosure, it’s not working. All of that plus taking care of the home and dealing with sudden stresses and the holidays.

It was too much.

I knew I had to downsize hobby-wise. The first thing I cut was art. Really, had no qualms about it. I can wait on coding, so that’s out for now. The book thing is almost done; can’t quit now. I rely on crafts, especially around Christmas for gift-giving, so no. That leaves making videos.

A week, on average, I can spend 15-35 hours on making videos. That’s quite a lot of time for someone not making a profit on it. I make ‘profit’ on everything else I do. My blog is a proper brain dump for all my work. Writing and editing for my future. Crafts as gifts, the profit of others. ASL because I’ve been yearning to learn a second language; it makes you more marketable and cultured. Videos, while fun to do, don’t give me much to gain. It may do me well in the future, but right now it’s not doing much.

But I couldn’t just let go of making videos. I truly love it.

Then, the universe gave me a scapegoat: my computer.

If you were not aware, everything I do technologically was done by a 3-year-old laptop bought for 300$ at Fred Meyer (a grocery store). When I first got it, I was so certain it was only going to last a year, a year and a half max. I mean, the built-in keyboard lasted 5 months before failing. It certainly proved me wrong by lasting 3 years and 2 months (ish).

But if finally glitched its last glitch. Programs, if they opened at all, were slow and/or froze. The internet super glitched and wouldn’t open websites at all. I finally called it. It’s not worth the headache of keeping it going.

So, I currently do not have a computer. I’m grateful for the chance to blame this break on something else.

Until I get a new computer, I still plan on writing on my blog, so this will stay updated, and you can check out past videos.

Though not having a computer will be a big pain in the ass, it’ll give me something less to worry about during stressful time.



P.S. I’m typing this at the library, more likely the place I will do all of my writing.

A Message from Assistant Edgar

IMG_1570It is 5 November, 2018.

Happy Bonfire Night to Miss TG’s U.K. friends.

Miss TG is having a struggle with her scheduling, which gives me more work.

So, even though I have a lot of paperwork to do, I was also scheduled to give another message.

Sometimes your work, your life, or your mind will give you extra struggles.

All we can do in these moments is work through it to the best of our ability. It may/will take time. But success is more than possible; it is achievable.

And do not be afraid to ask for help. In my line of business, I usually work alone. However, in these busy days, I have asked Senior Marketer and Certified Black Cat Mr. Toothless to help me. It is not a sign of weakness or failure to ask for help. I’m perfectly capable in my abilities; I just also knew I could not do it on my own.

It is okay to worry and to stress.

But do not let it overpower and overcome you.


Assistant Edgar

A Message from Certified Black Cat Toothless


I’m Toothless, and I’m a black cat.

I spend my day sleeping, eating, sleeping, snuggling with my human, eating, and being a papa figure to the other cats, since I am the oldest.

I love soft food, pets, and sticking my leg out when I lay down.

Halloween is coming up.

Black cats are seen as superstitious creatures.

We are no more or less dangerous than any other cat.

I less so, since I’m so domesticated I refuse to leave the house. And I’m chubby so I don’t run much.

Black cats are given a bad reputation, and around this time of year is when we are bullied, hurt, even killed the most.

In reality, we can be sweet. We can be snugglers. We can give hugs and kisses.

Please don’t hurt us. And don’t let others hurt us either.



A Message from Assistant Edgar

IMG_1570It is 1 October 2018.

It is the start of a new month.

I am aware that others see a new start in a new year. However, I see a new start in a new month.

The planner gets updated, the goals are reworked/reset, and you get to write a new month on all of your paperwork.

It is a new time.

If the past month was unkind to you, take this as a new start.

Start again.


Assistant Edgar


IMG_0898Today is the first day of Fall!

The days are getting colder, Halloween is around the corner, and I get to break out my sweaters.

I have such an issue with Spring and Summer that when Fall comes around, I celebrate. And when Winter rears its head, I’m at my best.

I hope you find some excitement in the season, even if you tend to not like Fall.

Hugs (and pumpkin spice)


To All Who Read This:

Thank you.

I appreciate you taking your time to come along with me on these adventures through learning and hard times. 

Thank you for being my companion in life’s crazy unpredictabilities. 

To all who like or comment:

Thank you for interacting, and letting me know that I’m not alone. 

Whether you like, comment, or just read my posts, thank you.

I love you all.



(I’ve been really down about some of the madness going on with my life. And I just want you guys to know that no matter what is going on, I greatly appreciate who you are and you are greatly loved) ❤

A Graduate’s Advice for College Freshman

College is about to begin again. And that means people are starting a higher education. Guys, I’ve done that twice. After attending a higher education for six and a half years, I have a Masters in addition to a Bachelors degree. And having those six and a half years experience, I have some advice for those going into college for the first time. 

1. Find a designated study space. Don’t study on your bed, on your couch, or anywhere that you’d normally relax or socialize. For me, I would go to the library. And the library was where I would only study. I would try to meet groups for group projects in other places. Keep it consistent, and it will help you.

2. Do like to study to music? Cool, me too. However, don’t use music with lyrics of any kind. Even foreign ones. Seriously, I thought I could get away with listening to Japanese or Korean music while studying, but then I used my memory and time to try to memorize the foreign lyrics and even looking up what the lyrics mean. Listen to music, but without lyrics for better studying. 

3. Do your chores. Guys, seriously. Life is a lot easier when you do your laundry and your dishes. 

4. A planner. I cannot stress this out enough. Get. A. Planner. Write down every single assignment you have, every test date, everything. And look at it every morning. EVERY MORNING! 

5. Keep your syllabus. Believe it or not, the syllabi the teachers give can be very useful. They’ll usually have contact information, office hours, and class rules you may want to know (also some teachers give a quiz on if your read the syllabus). Sometimes they will also have the schedule for classes and assignments. Don’t be like me and show up to your 7.15 am class just to find out there was no class that day, as said on the syllabus. 

6. Also, don’t be like me and take early morning classes if you’re a night owl. You want to keep your sanity. 

7. Couponing. It’s not just for middle aged moms and grandmas. College kids are notoriously poor (and boy do I know), so take up couponing. Figure out the best deals at the best places. You’ll get more food for less money! 

8. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. See your teacher if you don’t understand something. See your advisor if you have a question about that. See a doctor if you’re feeling poorly. See a therapist if you need to. It’s not stupid. It’s not weak. It’ll only make you smarter, stronger, and more capable. 

9. And finally, don’t bother about what people think of you. There will be roommates who don’t like you, there’ll be classmates who ignore you. People who don’t like the way you look, the major you’ve chosen, the food you eat. It doesn’t matter. What other people think of you is none of your business. Don’t get me wrong, you will make friends. Life-long friends. But don’t expect to be liked by everyone, and don’t let that interfere with your life. 

Take it from my personal experience (good and bad), these are important for college. Good luck, and study hard!