June Bullet Journal

We’re back with some bullet journaling.

I’ve discovered (or realized depending on how you look at it) that setting up my monthly bullet journal is a form of meditation. I’m calm-minded, nothing is bothering me, and I’m focused on one thing. So I take that time seriously.

As well, every month I try something new, particularly with weekly setups as I haven’t found one that really works for me. This month is no different.

For the month of June, I decided to do a camera/Polaroid theme. Summer has started, trips are happening, and it’s time to capture those memories.

I always have a quote and title page. For my quote this month, I just chose a comic that resonates with me and what I want to do this month…but in a Polaroid to stay on theme.

For my monthly overview, I have my month at a glance, and some empty space I don’t know what to do with. On the right, I have stuff I like to track: to dos, dates, and bills.

For weekly, I thought I’d try to focus more on tracking my health, including water and caffeine consumption, steps taken, and meal planning. A general tasks list for what I need to do this week, and since the theme is Polaroid’s, taking at least one Polaroid a week to put in.

And finally, I end my regular spreads with a decorative page. Kind of a break from planner to journal.

And that’s it. I’m always open to recommendations for quotes, themes, and of course, spreads.




Time for a story!

Something you may not know about me is that I’m actually scared of being an overqualified person. I’m scared I’m gonna be ‘too expensive’ or whatever that I won’t get a job. This fear started back in my college days.

My undergrad operated on a 3 semester schedule: Fall, Winter, and Spring. Students would attend for two semesters and have the third off (plus summer).

Anyway, during my off semester, I would get a job to help with bills and afford travel back to school. After a few off semesters of being the Liberty Tax Dancing Statue of Liberty, I had hoped for something different and heard Walmart was hiring (a rarity in our area, surprisingly). So, I applied.

Important to note was how I was as a student. I was successful in high school earning an advanced diploma with other honors. As well, I was a good student in college, with a high GPA and scholarship. I am not at all trying to show off, this is just part of the story.

After I applied, I received a message very quickly that told me they could not accept my application because I was overqualified for the position.


I’m just a poor college student trying to make money in my off semester. Does having an education and good grades really deny me a job? It freaked me out.

Ever since then (plus a few stories told me overqualified people are too expensive to hire) I’ve always had a worry that I will become too expensive and overqualified for work.

I’m sure things have changed at Walmart, particularly that local Walmart, since then, and I’m on my way to a second Masters. We just gotta make it work, don’t we?

Also, if you were curious, I got a job at 7-Eleven that off-semester…



…And Stuff I’ve Learned From It

Last post was about my downward spiral into TikTok. Now, I’m going to share some things I learned from TikTok. I’ll also put their TikTok @s if you have TikTok and want to check them out. (Also, how many times can I type TikTok in one paragraph…)

  1. How to get past Snapchats back (@alana.rubin)
  2. Soda can help your anxiety attacks (@dr1ven8)
  3. How to dust fanblades without mess (@cleanthatup)
  4. How to sign ‘brown chicken brown cow’ (@prettyhandy)
  5. Where to shop for cute big girl sizes (@angelinamontoyaa, @brightbabyblueeyes)
  6. Death Note was almost a Broadway musical (@maris.mp4)
  7. There is now a Coronavirus nursery rhyme (@animullen, @chaoticcreator)
  8. How to make huge decisions and how to figure out what to do with your life (@johnhoyos95)
  9. If you sell products, have great packaging to make it an experience (@diamondcrustshine)
  10. Denim Day – look it up at their website denimdayinfo.org (@ms.thriftyy)
  11. I’m probably not a vibe ._. (@danbanbam)

These are just a few of many things I’ve learned on TikTok. Let me know what you’ve learned if you have an account and if you want to see what else I’ve learned with my new obsession.



P.S. My TikTok @ is alexandratgtv

Addicted to TikTok…

For a while, I was so against TikTok. Maybe it was my petty bias to Vine (which is dead so what’s the point). Maybe it’s the problematic people I continuously heard about on the platform. Maybe it’s because I’m an ‘adult’ and I don’t ‘belong on TikTok’. I don’t fully know why I was against TikTok like that.

And then two of my good friends (shoutout Kiki and Christian) convinced me to join so they can send me TikToks. Might as well take this as another learning experience, right?

Now, I’m obsessed.

I go on TikTok several times a day, I send them to my friends and family, and I’ve even made a few.

As for my previous concerns, Vine is still dead and there’s a plethora of material on TikTok. I know to stay away (and if necessary, block) problematic people and topics, and no one has made any problems on my own videos. And regardless of what people say, all ages are represented on TikTok.

This all sounds like I’m trying to convince you to join TikTok. If you don’t want to, don’t. I’m not advocating for everyone to join; it’s not for everyone. I’m just letting you guys know my own experience.

And, yes, I’ve learned quite a bit on TikTok! I enjoy learning, so having gained some knowledge in an entertaining fashion.

Now I can’t get enough.

All I can do is limit my time, which I’ve started doing, but I’m not overly upset that I enjoy TikTok. I’ll start becoming upset when it starts becoming detrimental.

Anyway, Wednesday’s post will be about what I’ve learned on TikTok.

See you then!



Plans for the Blog

I have no excuse.

Let’s recap life at the moment: school is done, I’m working more, quarantine sucks the life out of you, and I’ve been having a lot of mental cracks.

And yet, I can’t seem to write blog posts!

I know, in general, people will say ‘don’t be so hard on yourself’, ‘give yourself room to relax’, and ‘forgive yourself’. And that’s all true. Be kind to yourself, forgive yourself, yes. But there is a time when I’m just making excuses when there really isn’t one.


I’m gonna make myself more responsible by putting my schedule out and making some solid plans for the blog.

The schedule I’ve set that I’d like to continue with is every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 9am PST. Now you know, and feel free to yell at me if I miss one.

As for plans of future posts, I’ll be starting a segment called Book versus Movie, I’ll continue my quotes collection, every month will bring bullet journal spreads, by popular demand I’ll talk about my journey to celebrating Pride as an abrosexual, and a lot more!

Now that I have a plan, I need to deliver. I completely recognize that sometimes things happen. But I should at least let you guys know before falling off the grid for weeks.

Be kind to yourself, but be responsible for yourself too.

I’ll see you Monday!


Glasgow “Regrets”…or lack thereof

img_3320As you may know, I spent a year in Glasgow, Scotland receiving my Masters from the University of Scotland. I was chatting with someone who heard that I had some interesting adventure while I was out there, and since it’s college in a foreign land I probably had something I regretted. But, to be honest, there’s nothing I did during that year that I regret. Let me go through some stuff.

Starting with some trips I took, I went to London several times for various things, including spending the day in the Tower of London, a book tour (or two), and an expo. Did not regret a single thing about those trips. I didn’t even regret staying in a sketchy hostel while I was down there because, man, that was an experience. I went up to Edinburgh even more, mostly to see cats. I went to Manchester to see a drag show and spent some time by the Alan Turing memorial, where it’s a mini tent city sadly. Don’t regret spending time with them. And my biggest trip was to Paris, France, where I stayed at Disneyland Paris, spent a few days there, and went on a Paris excursion to the Louvre. Hella expensive, but I don’t regret a single expense.

When I was actually staying in Glasgow, I still had the time of my life, with no regret. I spent time in city centre whenever I had the aching to be there, and I found a ramen shop which I ate at more times than I can remember. Of course, there were plenty of events I took part in, mostly shows and concerts. I saw Amadeus live, Christmas Queens, Bianca Del Rio, an opera, plenty of plays (hello, major in school), a Halloween costume contest (which I won), an outdoor festival with Radiohead, and concerts by Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold, Blink-182, Starset, Breaking Benjamin, and more that I’m probably forgetting right now. What’s more, I was VIP to some of the concerts (because it’s cheaper in the UK than in the US…for some reason). Did not regret a single moment of those.

What about school? How was I able to do all these great things and be a Masters student. Honestly, I don’t remember. But I did it. I worked hard, got my degree with honors and lots of experience. Not only was I able to work as a dramaturg and write a play, but I was able to be a reviewer at the Fringe in Edinburgh and I was able to write and perform a small one-woman piece.

Long story short, I don’t regret my time. Even now as I’m back in school for a degree that seemingly doesn’t have much of anything to do with the Masters I got, I don’t regret the experience at all. I’m sure I had some regrets back in the day, but looking back I have nothing but love for my year out there. I can’t afford to spend brain power regretting anything. I’d rather remember it as the awesome place and time it was.

Hugs (and haggis, which wasn’t disgusting)


I am Grateful…I Can Still Complain


Until my teacher friend gets her own computer, she’s been borrowing mine for her Zoom meetings with her students. I don’t have issues with it since she only does it twice a week for, like, an hour. After a session, she told me she liked my desk chair.

Now, here’s the thing: I hate my desk chair. The back is ripped, the wheels stick, and what’s worse it sinks every time I sit. I’m a tall lady and need my chair to be tall, but as I start typing or whatever I need to do at my computer it starts to sink and messes up the whole operation (it was actually starting to sink as I type this!)

My teacher friend said that ‘at least I have a desk chair’ or some variation. I am grateful I have something. But I can still complain.

I’m not whining or blaming other people. I’m not being insensitive or talking about it constantly. I’m just expressing my dislike for certain things.

I think this is totally acceptable. Having complaints is totally normal. Being grateful for what you have, sure, but being honest with your feelings.

I’m grateful that I have this chair, but as soon as I have enough money I’m getting a new one.



Quotes in My Collection (pt. 1)

I’m a fan of quotes. I have a small collection of quote books and have started two quote books (and two book quote books). I sprawl them when and where I need them with only one quote at my desk at all times. I love collecting quotes, and it’s generally the first thing I ask for from my penpals.

Anyway, let me share a few of the quotes I have in my collection:

  • “I will not give you the satisfaction of hating you.” –Antoine Leiris from the book You Will Not Have My Hate
  • “Happiness isn’t something that depends on our own surroundings. It’s something we make inside ourselves.” –Corrie Ten Boom from The Hiding Place
  • “Do what you can do in joy, instead of trying to do it all in misery.” –Jen Sincero from You Are a Badass
  • “Never apologize for who you are. It lets the whole world down.” –Jen Sincero
  • “You get one life, one body, one go at this whole thing. Make yourself your own responsibility and let’s get living.” –The Try Guys in The Hidden Power of F*cking Up
  • “It’s okay to fail. It’s okay to fall down. Get up, look sickening, and make them eat it.” –Latrice Royale
  • “Stop telling yourself that the grass is greener on the other side, because it’s not. It is greener where you water it. So take control of your life and start watering your own pastures and grow your own greener grasses.”
  • “No one can provide the heart its own peace; you have to find it yourself.” –Patrick Ness from The Rest of Us Just Live Here
  • “To choose doubt as a philosophy of life is akin to choosing immobility as a means of transportation.” –Yann Martel from Life of Pi
  • “Faith is about doing. You are how you act, not just how you believe.” –Mitch Albom from have a little faith
  • “Ah, music. Magic beyond all we do here.” –J.K. Rowling from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone
  • “All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.” –Mitch Albom from the five people you meet in heaven
  • “This is my body. It’s going to be with me forever. For all the ways it’s failed me, it’s come through for me a million times more. I’ll never be skinny and don’t really want to be. I want to be smaller and I want to be healthier. My body will get me there. Every day I have to remind myself to be good to my body and allow it to be good to me.” –Gabourey Sidibe
  • “Sometimes you just gotta put your nose to the grindstone. You gotta look at it and it doesn’t matter how much it sucks. It doesn’t matter how boring it is. It doesn’t matter how mundane. You see the road to your goal and it’s paved with broken glass; you can bitch and moan the whole way, but at the end of the day, you just gotta walk.” –Mark Fischbach (the quote that lives at my desk)

This is a small, small, small portion of quotes I have, but I’m still looking for more. If you have any quotes you’d like to share, please share with me. From books, from movies, from your cousin; inspirational, funny, odd. Does not matter. Share your quotes.

I’ll probably be sharing more in the future.

And I have other collections, so let me know if you want me to share some of those.

“Hugs.” –Alexandra

Musical Questionnaire

Due to everyone being on social media these days, I’ve been seeing a lot of fun little get-to-know-you questionnaires pop up. I thought, for today’s post, I would do one.

(Because, honestly, I didn’t know what else to do, I’m drowning in finals).

I saw one about musicals/theatre that might tickle some fancies, so here we go:


1. what’s your favorite musical? Hunchback of Notre Dame

2. favorite character in your favorite musical? Esmerelda 

3. what’s your favorite play? The Pillowman (it’s tragic; don’t psychoanalyze me)

4. favorite character in your favorite play? probably Katurian

5. what’s your dream role? one I wrote myself…doesn’t count? okay…

6. what’s a role you’d like to play that you’d never be able to? Hamlet

7. do you prefer being behind the scenes or in the spotlight? depends on the show

8. do you like hamilton? ooh, I’m about to get hate…I like maybe three songs…I don’t like the musical itself

9. have you seen hamilton? no. I’m hella poor. who can afford that?

10. how do you feel about hyped up shows like hamilton, les mis, and rent? if they’re enjoyed by people, I don’t care. my personal opinion shouldn’t stop hype or what other people want to see. 

11. did you like this year’s tony awards? didn’t watch. haven’t been watching lately because awards shows themselves have gone kinda…ehhh

12. what award should there be that isn’t? dramaturgy, but that’s a personal preference. in all seriousness, effects should have an award. and technician work.

13. what shows have you been in/helped with? do you want to be here for too long? I’ve been doing theatre since I was 6. for some idea of what I’ve done, go to my theatre tab. 

14. have you ever been paid to act onstage or on camera? no…but I definitely should have been. plenty of times.

15. do you prefer broadway or west end shows? depends on the show (just saying, Hunchback never made it to Broadway…)

16. favorite stage actress? Bernadette Peters

17. favorite stage actor? David Tennant (his Hamlet was the best I’ve ever seen)

18. favorite show currently or recently running? …what is running?

19. what’s your dream #ham4ham (even if you don’t like hamilton)? what does that tag mean?

20. who should host the tony’s next year? Michael Arden

21. do you watch broadwaycom backstage vlogs? no…didn’t even know it was a thing

22. what’s your opinion on movies turned into musicals? depends if they’re good or not. some movies work as musicals (Heathers) and some movies don’t (Beetlejuice).

23. do you prefer musical movies or live musicals? plays. no? fine, live musicals

24. do you have an opinion on american psycho? is it a musical now? I saw the movie like 8 years ago…

25. what movie would you want to be turned into a musical? Wonderman

26. what role would you like to see your favorite actor play? he already did, but I would love to see David (I assume you meant stage actor, which works since my favorite film actor is dead) play Katurian in The Pillowman live. either that or Beelzebub in Faustus

27. do you prefer musicals, plays, or operas? plays. I’m such a straight play person

28. dramatic plays or comedies? dramatic, though major shout out to comedies because comedies are very hard to write and act

29. andrew lloyd webber or stephen sondheim? probably Sondheim…

30. neil patrick harris or james corden? Neil Patrick Harris, but all love to James as well

31. did james corden do a good job hosting the tony’s (in your opinion)? didn’t watch, so couldn’t tell you

32. create a show mash-up and explain the plot (ex: legally todd = sweeney todd + legally blonde) oof. let’s go with Heathers and Macbeth. call it ‘Witches’

33. what song always makes you cry? now I’m really gonna look like a heartless bastard, but I don’t cry songs. I don’t cry with movies, books, or songs (except one song ever). but a song that made me feel many feels was from Waitress called ‘she used to be mine’

34. how do you feel about musicals using other artists’ music? like Mamma Mia? meh. as long as they have the artists’ permission, I don’t care. I’m not a huge musical person, remember?

35. what celebrity would you like to see on broadway next? none. let’s not taint Broadway further with name-dropping

36. favorite show you’ve been in? how dare you. SOME of my favorites include The Mousetrap, A Christmas Carol, Dark Side of the Moon, And Then There Were None, and Macbeth

37. would you like to act professionally? I wouldn’t mind. it was an original goal until I was constantly told I was too fat and too tall

38. television or stage acting? stage

39. what disney movie should be a musical that isn’t? none. let’s leave what is as it is

40. if you could see one show on broadway or west end, what would it be? my own

41. what musical should be revived next? what’s been dead?

42. are musical sequels okay? so far, they haven’t been

43. what musical sequel would you like there to be that isn’t? nah, let’s stick with an original and that’s it

44. have you ever had a crush on a character from a show? …yes, but I won’t say who

45. how do you feel about musicals being done live on tv now? I don’t mind. it gets people to watch what they can’t generally afford.

46. did you like grease live? didn’t watch

47. are you excited for hairspray live? they did that?

48. what show do you desperately want your school/community to do? a Christie murder mystery

49. are you a stronger singer or dancer? singer out of those two, but I’m a far better actor and can fall all over the stage

50. would you rather design the set, direct the show, or help with effects? yes.