A Message from Assistant Edgar

IMG_1570It is 27 January 2020.

I am fully aware that I have not written to you since July of last year.

Miss Alexandra has kept me quite busy throughout her first semester, and promises to do so for her current semester.

She had asked me to write today as she has received some very stressful news regarding her schoolwork that she has to fix as soon as she can. She informed me she would let you know more about it in a future post.

When you receive news that gives you unnecessary stress, take time to help yourself. Evaluate what you need to do and make a plan. But always make sure you follow through.


Assistant Edgar

Quitting YouTube

Anyone who follows my YouTube channel may be aware that I haven’t posted a video in 3 months…

Well…I quit.

No more casual videos. Or videos in general. Not set.

Now, since like 2 of you watch my videos, I’m sure you’re wondering why.

Going back (I watched a bunch of my past videos when I was making this decision) I noticed how much I said I loved editing and I loved making videos. Well, let’s get into my reasons, in which there are three:

1. Time and stress

I’m back in school, and made a video about it (here). I’m a full time graduate student pursuing information sciences. It’s a lot of work, and an assignment last semester (my FIRST semester) almost broke my mental state. There’s a lot more that goes into this grad program than past schooling. On top of that, I work. And the job, depending on the day and project, can make me very stressed. On top of that, maintaining a household and responsibilities outside of work and school, including productions. Oh, and a LOT of hobbies. It’s a real issue how many I have. So I don’t lose myself mentally and physically, I needed to cut some. Video making being one of them.

2. The plateau

Everyone’s a big fat liar if they say they aren’t excited when they see risen numbers on their YouTube channel. I did well for a hot second with double digits. And then it dropped. And I got bummed. For the majority of the time, I didn’t give a shit. Realizing I actually cared and worried about gaining numbers was a kick in the teeth. I didn’t want to, so maybe it’s best if I leave it.

3. Probably the biggest reason: I don’t enjoy it as much as I used to.

Making edits was one of the funnest things I did in my free time. I love making Markiplier spin or making a clone of myself or showing off all the anime pics I collected for research. And then…I stopped enjoying it. It became tedious, annoying, time-consuming, and I was never happy with the product I put out. To me, it’s not worth doing something as a hobby if you don’t enjoy it. It took a LOT of reflection, a lot of staring at Adobe Premiere, a lot of watching my own videos to realize that I don’t want to do this anymore. I love the 5 years I did, and the videos aren’t going anywhere. I’m not deleting the channel or the videos. I’m just not making them anymore.

Would I ever go back? Probably not, but never say never. The only thing I can think of that will make me make another video is if I needed to make a short film (a lot of ‘makes’ in that sentence…). I mean, it might happen depending on where my schooling and my career take me.

It was a fun journey while it lasted. I’m grateful for what I learned and for the people who watched and for the friends who helped out.

Thanks for understanding.

RIP YouTube channel
28 November 2014–15 October 2019



An Update to the Website (part 2)

We’re back!

Do you like the new color scheme? The new pics? The new menu?

Today, I’m going to use my first post back giving you a little tour.

On the home page, the only thing that has changed is aesthetics. It’s still my blog where I’ll post (hopefully) every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. But I made it darker, I gave it an older book background, and I’ve changed the side bar. No books to read, no shameless YouTube plug. Just a shameless self plug, lol.

Nothing changed under the writing menu.

I now have a theatre menu, where I put most of my jobs I’ve had in theatre (from 2012 up). This is not only to serve as a fun trip down memory lane for me and you, but this could serve to my advantage in the (potential) professional world. Under the menu, I’ve separated the jobs into production, acting, and technical. I have also moved the makeup and cosplay under there, as well as the short films I’ve made.

Nothing changed under the art menu.

The contact menu, previously known as about me, is where you can get into contact with me for any reason. Under this menu, I also have the about me section.

And that’s what had changed!

Thanks so much for giving me this week to get my metaphorical ducks in a row, and I hope you enjoy the new look!



An Update to the Website

We’re not quitting it, so don’t worry about that.

I wanted to give it a tiny facelift in the hopes it can help me out a little more with potential careers.

So, while I get adjusted to the new semester and I go through the website, posts won’t be coming.

Expect them to come back by next Wednesday (22 Jan) when I actually have something interesting or insightful to say lol.

Until then, enjoy past posts, feel free to poke around because I have more than posts (writing, art, etc.), and by all means go visit other sites.

See you soon.



A Slow Start to the New Year

Does anyone else find life kind of dragging its feet for this new year?

Coming into 2020, I wanted to head straight into the year guns blazing, ready to go head butt it into submission. It didn’t turn out that way when I got severe influenza and some other plans turned on their heads.


I just wanted you to know that it’s okay to have a slow start. Remember, the tortoise ended up winning.

What you do not do it quit when it’s not going fast enough. Go the speed you can, knowing you’re still making strides toward the finish line.

I am hoping I pick up my feet a little, but I’m excited to keep going.



School is Back in Session

Winter break is over, fellow students. It’s time to go back to school.

This is just a little post to let you know my first class is today and the time has come for me to lose sleep and stress once again.

And if you are starting school this week (or next week like Vladimir), I wish you all the luck and success in the world.



And We’re Back

Woah, my last post was from 18 December last year (so, like, two weeks ago). Either way, where the hell have I been?

I honestly didn’t mean to leave you all hanging like that, but I was dealing with holidays (Hanukkah, Christmas, New Years, yeah) and I got a VERY bad case of influenza. I was uber sick and juggling responsibilities.

Anyway, happy 2020!

Personally, I don’t do resolutions, but I have yearly goals (and no I don’t believe they are the same thing). But if you do have resolutions, I’m sending good vibes that you may work hard and achieve.

I would really like to actually stay on schedule for the year. With that said, school starts again this week so I’ll be back in the hustle of school, work, productions, and goals. Hopefully my assistant (who’s completely fine) can be my backup poster when things get hectic, lol.

Let’s have a good and productive year, beautiful people!



Christmas Movies I’m Planning on Enjoying

Like my Halloween movies post (found here) there are some Christmas movies I’m hoping to watch throughout the season. I haven’t started since writing this, but hopefully I can get my list done.

Some generic Christmas movies I enjoy include:

  • Santa Clause
  • Home Alone (and 2, fight me)
  • A Christmas Story
  • It’s a Wonderful Life
  • Miracle on 34th St

And there’s more, but you’re here for the movies that aren’t precisely ‘Christmas’ but are what I watch around this time:

  • Nightmare Before Christmas (Vladimir will argue that this is a Halloween movie, but I think it’s a Christmas movie)
  • Die Hard (takes place on Christmas Eve)
  • Die Hard 2 (Christmas time as well)
  • Edward Scissorhands (the climax takes place around Christmas and snow is a huge factor)
  • Green Book (gotta get home in time for Christmas)
  • Sherlock: The Abominable Bride (also known as the Sherlock Christmas special)
  • A Studio Ghibli movie (for no real reason, really. I just like them around Christmas)

If I missed a movie, let me know. I’m planning on watching all of these before the new year, so let me know what you watch.

Enjoy your Christmas media!



Time to Shop! (Also, Happy Friday the 13th)

It’s time for Christmas shopping!

Here are some tips I use when I go shopping:

  1. Coupons! Yes, I sound like a total suburban mom, but coupons are literal wallet lifesavers. If you are members of any catalogs, keep an eye on coupons usually glued on the outside of them. Otherwise, a simple Google search could help you out. And make sure they’re in date.
  2. Reusable bags! Not only are they eco-friendly, but they are opaque so your friends and family can’t see what you bought them.
  3. Honey! This is if you’re buying anything online. There’s an extension for your Google called Honey, and all it does is provide promo and coupon codes for your online purchases. Costs nothing and saves you money, and I use it all the time. (This is not an ad, I just love Honey).
  4. Have! A! Budget! This is the biggest BIGGEST thing about shopping. Know how much you have and how much you can spend. Be frugal; don’t go overboard if you don’t have the case. Sit down with yourself before you do any shopping and know what you got.
  5. Go to multiple places! Various places have various prices, so it’s best to go to those various places to get the best prices you can. If that makes sense.
  6. Please, for the love of God, wear deodorant and have mints/gum! Shopping for Christmas is so crowded, and the only thing worse than bumping elbows with strangers is being around smelly ones. Don’t be that one.

I know I’m missing some, but these seem most important at the moment. As you go about your shopping, make sure you’re kind to yourself and those around you, especially the over-worked customer service workers.

Good luck.

AND happy Friday the 13th! Just wanted to say that, so double good luck with your shopping.